Unease.

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Must i really type a title every time i want to post? Its.. such a hassle..
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This past week has gone by in a flash, just as the previous weeks have. Passing so slowly when you're in the midst of it, yet when you realise that the dates have flown past you, it's too late to do anything more about it.

In order to semi-quit IMO, and try to make better use of my time, i've tried learning a piano song (still in progress, i suck at it). It doesn't have a name, but if you want to listen there are a few examples on youtube. I learn from a MIDI file there. Search for <Secret: time travel piece> because it's from a movie (不能说的秘密）

And i've decided that i should start building up my atrophied muscles once more, so i've been cycling for about 20 minutes each day for the past two days. Hope it helps.

When i cycle at about 3.30p.m. i can see students passing by me. Then, an indescribable feeling will surface in me.. i am envious at them for having something to do, because i am too free. I feel like a NEET. Wasting my life away.. watching the seconds and minutes tick slowly by, and coalesce into something far bigger. It makes me feel both anxious to go back to school but yet i don't feel like it; regardless of where i am posted to, i am far too slack, and have been for two months. I dread going back to school, and falling behind in the fast-paced learning, realising that i have unlearned what was drilled into me for the past four years.

It is raining now.
As i listen to the pitter-patter of raindrops outside, there is a sudden, overwhelming urge to revisit the songs that i once loved, and still love.
They calm me, and the goosebumps surface on my skin. There is something in music that resounds with my inner self, that relaxes me as i sit still and close my eyes.
Us chinese call it '陶冶性情'.
I recommend some songs (just go youtube and search)
Joe hisaishi produces really good music, and they go well with movies by Hayao Miyazaki
e.g.  Howl's moving Castle
       Spirited Away

and stuff like Winter Sonata..

Turn off the lights, lie down in a recliner, close your eyes, and enjoy their sublime beauty.