Actually, I'm not doing much for NUS scholarships application and USP for now (...)
SIGH
I wonder why )))))):
These are two things I really want to get! USP because I want to study architecture and take on something similar to liberal arts. Scholarship because it offers me the option of USP. And well... Who doesn't want free money? Free hostel fees (for the most prestigious of them all); laptop allowance; yearly allowance; THE CHANCE TO GO OVERSEAS WAHHH FOR USP TOO; and no bond! It's a dream come true... but will the scholarship board want someone who doesn't have straight A's, who doesn't have a single leadership position due to multiple insecurities; who has low self esteem?
But then again, do dreams come true if we don't try? Am I not trying? I don't want to be this self anymore, this person who slacks, who theoreticises but doesn't carry out what he proposes. I don't want to be an armchair critic. I don't want to keep sleeping away my weekends (my sleep was 9+ hours long these past two days. So am awake now to type all this.). I want to actively seek out and be what I want to be. I'll seek out my uncle for advice. Heck, I'll make plans to go knock on people's doors and see if they are intrigued enough to help me. (So help, please. Hehehe.) And if I manage to snag USP and/or a NUS scholarship (any one that allows me to go for USP!) I will honestly cry. Because these are things which I've never ever wanted so very badly in my entire life (apart from a certain someone). So I'll fight for it. And hopefully I touch souls. I get to touch my dream.
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Anyway. Moving on. I'll be trying to do something extremely rudimentary tomorrow because I suddenly decided to do it after a rather long talk and a rather long day which hasn't resulted in much concrete action. Please, whoever is watching over me... Give me strength. Strength to change myself and to change others. (Hint: is mentioned in one of the posts below.)
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Moving on on the moving on.
Yes.
To all the people out there in the world who actually somehow or rather chance upon my blog.
Do you have a dream? Or dreams?
Are you tryng to make them work?
Or do you think that you've seen it all, especially if you're an adult?
Especially Singaporeans... Are we, as a nation, keen to stay as a country with extremely high PISA scores but yet unwilling to translate into entrepreneurship? Are we satisfied with iron rice bowls? Do we not dream? Have we abandoned our dreams for the cold, hard reality that is so apparent to us?
Perhaps I'm still young, still innocent, still naive enough to dream.
But while this lasts, while I am not yet jaded enough to resign myself to simply churning out run-of-the-mill designs as an arhcitect (hypothetical scenario), I encourage you, dear viewer, to take a few minutes and think. Have you left your dreams to fade and die? Why? Why not keep trying?
I, too, have dreams. Dreams of going overseas, to study with the best of the best. Dreams that were punctuated by me being less hardworking than I should have. Dreams that were torn asunder by my A level results. But should we continue crying for ever? (I know I mope a lot... Maybe it'll stop in a few months more to come. Heh.) Shouldn't we patch up our dreams and continue to surf the wind and see where we go? Isn't there always the question, "what if"? (In no reference to what I wrote to James Lee, Author of the Mr Midnight series, as a primary school kid.) What if we don't stop dreaming? What if we all decided to pluck up the courage to stop regretting? What if we decide to change?
How many people have I met who have dissuaded me from architecture? Yet what am I afraid of? What happens when dreams are realised but aren't what we make them out to be?
But if we never try, we never know. This is the biggest lesson that my grades have taught me.
Because I am not content to simply exist and then have my light snuffed out a few decades later. Why continue wasting our minutes, hours, days, months? Whatever age we are, do we not want to be the best that we can be? Learn as much as there is to learn? Take in the beauty of the world? Do we really want to blunder through life before hitting a mid-life crisis?
So for our own sakes, I feel that we should pluck up the courage to change ourselves and our environment.
I personally find this the hardest thing to do, ever. But yet, I must keep trying. And I hope everyone else does too.
SIGH
I wonder why )))))):
These are two things I really want to get! USP because I want to study architecture and take on something similar to liberal arts. Scholarship because it offers me the option of USP. And well... Who doesn't want free money? Free hostel fees (for the most prestigious of them all); laptop allowance; yearly allowance; THE CHANCE TO GO OVERSEAS WAHHH FOR USP TOO; and no bond! It's a dream come true... but will the scholarship board want someone who doesn't have straight A's, who doesn't have a single leadership position due to multiple insecurities; who has low self esteem?
But then again, do dreams come true if we don't try? Am I not trying? I don't want to be this self anymore, this person who slacks, who theoreticises but doesn't carry out what he proposes. I don't want to be an armchair critic. I don't want to keep sleeping away my weekends (my sleep was 9+ hours long these past two days. So am awake now to type all this.). I want to actively seek out and be what I want to be. I'll seek out my uncle for advice. Heck, I'll make plans to go knock on people's doors and see if they are intrigued enough to help me. (So help, please. Hehehe.) And if I manage to snag USP and/or a NUS scholarship (any one that allows me to go for USP!) I will honestly cry. Because these are things which I've never ever wanted so very badly in my entire life (apart from a certain someone). So I'll fight for it. And hopefully I touch souls. I get to touch my dream.
**********************
Anyway. Moving on. I'll be trying to do something extremely rudimentary tomorrow because I suddenly decided to do it after a rather long talk and a rather long day which hasn't resulted in much concrete action. Please, whoever is watching over me... Give me strength. Strength to change myself and to change others. (Hint: is mentioned in one of the posts below.)
**********************
Moving on on the moving on.
Yes.
To all the people out there in the world who actually somehow or rather chance upon my blog.
Do you have a dream? Or dreams?
Are you tryng to make them work?
Or do you think that you've seen it all, especially if you're an adult?
Especially Singaporeans... Are we, as a nation, keen to stay as a country with extremely high PISA scores but yet unwilling to translate into entrepreneurship? Are we satisfied with iron rice bowls? Do we not dream? Have we abandoned our dreams for the cold, hard reality that is so apparent to us?
Perhaps I'm still young, still innocent, still naive enough to dream.
But while this lasts, while I am not yet jaded enough to resign myself to simply churning out run-of-the-mill designs as an arhcitect (hypothetical scenario), I encourage you, dear viewer, to take a few minutes and think. Have you left your dreams to fade and die? Why? Why not keep trying?
I, too, have dreams. Dreams of going overseas, to study with the best of the best. Dreams that were punctuated by me being less hardworking than I should have. Dreams that were torn asunder by my A level results. But should we continue crying for ever? (I know I mope a lot... Maybe it'll stop in a few months more to come. Heh.) Shouldn't we patch up our dreams and continue to surf the wind and see where we go? Isn't there always the question, "what if"? (In no reference to what I wrote to James Lee, Author of the Mr Midnight series, as a primary school kid.) What if we don't stop dreaming? What if we all decided to pluck up the courage to stop regretting? What if we decide to change?
How many people have I met who have dissuaded me from architecture? Yet what am I afraid of? What happens when dreams are realised but aren't what we make them out to be?
But if we never try, we never know. This is the biggest lesson that my grades have taught me.
Because I am not content to simply exist and then have my light snuffed out a few decades later. Why continue wasting our minutes, hours, days, months? Whatever age we are, do we not want to be the best that we can be? Learn as much as there is to learn? Take in the beauty of the world? Do we really want to blunder through life before hitting a mid-life crisis?
So for our own sakes, I feel that we should pluck up the courage to change ourselves and our environment.
I personally find this the hardest thing to do, ever. But yet, I must keep trying. And I hope everyone else does too.
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